
We Don’t Need To Meet Your Definition of Complete
“He needs a brother!” “Bless his heart, only having sisters” “Better get on that tie breaker” I like to say … Continue Reading We Don’t Need To Meet Your Definition of Complete
“He needs a brother!” “Bless his heart, only having sisters” “Better get on that tie breaker” I like to say … Continue Reading We Don’t Need To Meet Your Definition of Complete
The school psychologist called yesterday to let me know that Rowan’s IEP evaluations are complete. While we have our official “results” meeting on the 28th, he said he wanted to touch base to see if I’d like to hear what … Continue Reading The IEP process continues
I will not apologize if telling my story makes you uncomfortable I will not apologize for being loud about the … Continue Reading I am not sorry
Vallie has been ready to transition from her crib to toddler bed, but her beautiful birch crib was just not … Continue Reading Sloan’s Crib
Today is my 35th birthday. I’m so proud of myself, where I’m at today, how far I’ve come. The things … Continue Reading 35 Years
Research has found that trigger warnings do not actually seem to lessen trauma response from upsetting content, nor do they protect individuals from such responses. In fact, more often than not, trigger warnings cause more harm than good. Because trigger … Continue Reading On Trigger Warnings
My sweet, beautiful SloanTomorrow is your 5th birthday. I wish, every second, of every day,that you were here with us.That I could cradle you in my armsand feel your breath on my skin.But by some unimaginable, twist of fate,-that is … Continue Reading A Letter to Sloan
This has been heavy on my mama heart, bear with me. Over the past year we noticed Rowan was struggling … Continue Reading ADHD, Dyslexia, and Dysgraphia
A little over 8 years ago I stood outside the cracked open door of an emergency department exam room, Justin beside me. I was 4 months pregnant with my first baby at the time, but I wasn’t there for myself. … Continue Reading What a Friends Loss Taught Me
Sloan was cremated 4 years ago today. I remember that it was an extremely painful day for me, it felt like reliving the trauma all over again. A secondary loss. I remember sitting in the funeral home two weeks prior, … Continue Reading Save it for a Rainy Day
My sweet Sloan,You are the magic of fluttering wings on a warm summer day,the heaviness of a downpour as autumn makes its way.You are the quiet winter snowfall on bare branches of trees,the sweetness of fresh blossoms dancing in a … Continue Reading 4 Years Without You
Probably the dumbest attempted insult I see over and over again in my grief journey, is “you’re doing this for attention”. Um, yeah, I AM. It’s not a newsflash. You didn’t unlock a mysterious diagnosis. I am 100% of the … Continue Reading It is for attention
I have had a deep connection to this song since I first heard it. Sloan died during a heat wave, the first week of July 2017. The world crumbled beneath us as birds chirped, and the sun shined through the … Continue Reading Heat Waves
July 3 will be 4 years since we woke up to every parents worst nightmare. I have been protecting myself from the painful anticipation of another upcoming “anniversary”. In previous years I’ve seen myself becoming trapped in the grief as … Continue Reading Another Memorial Looms
I made myself small on the day my son died. As I cradled his stillness in my arms, rocking him rhythmically out of habit. While hours passed, feeling both like an eternity, and the blink of an eye. I knew … Continue Reading What Fear Took From Me
See that counter top? It’s where my 7 month old sons lifeless body lay, as my husband performed CPR. While … Continue Reading Home of the Past