Category: Grief & Loss

20 Days Post-Op

It’s been 20 days since my hysterectomy, and finally, the grief over losing the womb that grew and birthed my … Continue Reading 20 Days Post-Op

Sloan has been sending signs lately. His wind chime in the back garden has been rhythmically chiming as if intentional, with little to no breeze. Deers have visited daily on the hillside behind the house, frolicking about as the kids … Continue Reading See you in dreamland

Adenomyosis & PCS

Day 5 Post-op from Vaginal Hysterectomy with tube removal, POP repair, and perineal muscle reconstruction. Yesterday we received the pathology … Continue Reading Adenomyosis & PCS

Goodbye Uterus: Surgery Day

*Vaginal hysterectomy with tube removal, POP repair, and perineal reconstruction* I had my surgery, and it was quite an ordeal. … Continue Reading Goodbye Uterus: Surgery Day

Don’t Tell Me to Smile

I’m human, and sometimes words hurt. But it’s so frustrating that the thoughtless words of some stranger on the internet … Continue Reading Don’t Tell Me to Smile

What We Learned From Losing a Child to SIDS

-Each year, there are about 3,500 sudden unexpected infant deaths (SUID) in the United States. These deaths occur among infants less … Continue Reading What We Learned From Losing a Child to SIDS

Grief is Every Day

Today is National Grief Awareness Day. Grief is not a single day. It is every day. For the grieving, it … Continue Reading Grief is Every Day

A Plastic Box

My sons ashes aren’t in an urn. He sits on my dresser, inside the bag with a charred metal tag, … Continue Reading A Plastic Box

Bereaved Parents Month

July is Bereaved Parents month.When you first lose your child, everyone is profoundly impacted by your tragedy. Everyone mourns your … Continue Reading Bereaved Parents Month

Sloan’s 3rd Annual Memorial

3 years. 1,096 days. That’s how long it’s been since my arms last felt the weight of your body. Since … Continue Reading Sloan’s 3rd Annual Memorial

Bath Time & Bereavement

On your last night, I bathed you. You had two favorite places, my arms, and water. Bath time was sheer … Continue Reading Bath Time & Bereavement

Approaching 3 Years

A week from today, will be 3 entire years since Sloan left his earthly body. When he died, the subject of child loss and bereavement was still very little discussed. Watching grief and the experiences of bereaved parents begin to … Continue Reading Approaching 3 Years