It’s International Bereaved Fathers Day today. I think something that is often forgotten in the world of child loss is that- dads grieve too. My husbands grief isn’t something I’ve spent much of any time talking about publicly because I … Continue Reading International Bereaved Fathers Day
Dear Jordan, This morning, your son died. Right now it feels hopeless. As you hold your lifeless baby in your … Continue Reading A Letter To a Past Self
Rowan turns 6 two weeks from today. Lately he’s been remarking a LOT about missing his brother. The fact that my 6 year old child already has a part of his story that includes death, breaks my heart. I’m thankful … Continue Reading Rowan’s Grief
Have you ever had to think about what you would say for your child’s eulogy? Have you ever had to sign your name on a paper detailing what you want done with the body they left behind? Have you had … Continue Reading Have You Ever
The bereaved spend so much time being shushed and made to feel like we cannot share because it’s too sad, too uncomfortable, too inappropriate. We are quieted by people, with solutions, the want to gloss over with positivity, the need … Continue Reading Let us Complain
2 years since we had to learn how to live all over again 2 years of ache 2 years of … Continue Reading 2 years of the Space Between Us
On the day Sloan was cremated, I sat in my parents backyard and created a video containing all of our … Continue Reading Sloan’s Life in Photos
This book for bereaved mothers (it’s called You are the mother of all mothers) was sent to me just after … Continue Reading The Mother of All Mothers
This is a heartbreaking post to write. To have to recognize just how hurtful and mean spirited people can be, … Continue Reading Igniting the Flame
I’ve been so very triggered with my grief lately. I know pregnancy can really impact your emotions (trust me, this is my 4th baby and 6th pregnancy. I’m aware of what hormones do). But I’m just a wreck most days. … Continue Reading Tumbling in the Waves
It is Infertility Awareness week, so I’d like to touch back on the subject of secondary infertility & pregnancy loss. … Continue Reading Infertility Awareness Week
Holidays are always a struggle since his death. While they’re cherished time with family, they tend to be such a painful reminder of my child’s absence. Easter hit me hard. There should have been another basket, another set of tiny … Continue Reading Silencing
I spent my morning looking through the stacks of cards and letters sent to us when Sloan died. There are … Continue Reading Letters From Strangers
I slept pretty fitfully last night, and only for a brief few hours. My mind was racing with thoughts of him, and aching for another family, knowing in my bones exactly the agony they are experiencing right now. I want … Continue Reading It Doesn’t Get Better, Only Less Hard
On Tuesday I decided I had the courage to call the medical examiners office and ask for Sloan’s file. Last … Continue Reading Another Wave
I remember what trying to save a life looked like. It’s still so vivid, like when you wake from a dream and you’re so certain it was reality. Only, it’s been over a year and a half and still I … Continue Reading How to Save a Life
