Three
Tomorrow is your 3rd birthday. The third turn of a year for you, in which you aren’t here. It’s been … Continue Reading Three
November
Hello November! I’ve taken some time away from writing and posting lately. Life has been busy as we’ve settled into Rowan being in school, Phoenix turning into a little person instead of a baby, and ALL of us preparing for … Continue Reading November
This Was Never About Divinity
When you tell me “It was God’s plan”, “God needed him more”, “He’s in a better place”, “Heaven needed him”, or “Everything happens for a reason.” You are minimizing my child’s life and death. Stop saying these things to the … Continue Reading This Was Never About Divinity
International Bereaved Fathers Day
It’s International Bereaved Fathers Day today. I think something that is often forgotten in the world of child loss is that- dads grieve too. My husbands grief isn’t something I’ve spent much of any time talking about publicly because I … Continue Reading International Bereaved Fathers Day
A Letter To a Past Self
Dear Jordan, This morning, your son died. Right now it feels hopeless. As you hold your lifeless baby in your … Continue Reading A Letter To a Past Self
Rowan’s Grief
Rowan turns 6 two weeks from today. Lately he’s been remarking a LOT about missing his brother. The fact that my 6 year old child already has a part of his story that includes death, breaks my heart. I’m thankful … Continue Reading Rowan’s Grief
Have You Ever
Have you ever had to think about what you would say for your child’s eulogy? Have you ever had to sign your name on a paper detailing what you want done with the body they left behind? Have you had … Continue Reading Have You Ever
Let us Complain
The bereaved spend so much time being shushed and made to feel like we cannot share because it’s too sad, too uncomfortable, too inappropriate. We are quieted by people, with solutions, the want to gloss over with positivity, the need … Continue Reading Let us Complain
2 years of the Space Between Us
2 years since we had to learn how to live all over again 2 years of ache 2 years of … Continue Reading 2 years of the Space Between Us
Sloan’s Life in Photos
On the day Sloan was cremated, I sat in my parents backyard and created a video containing all of our … Continue Reading Sloan’s Life in Photos
The Mother of All Mothers
This book for bereaved mothers (it’s called You are the mother of all mothers) was sent to me just after … Continue Reading The Mother of All Mothers
Igniting the Flame
This is a heartbreaking post to write. To have to recognize just how hurtful and mean spirited people can be, … Continue Reading Igniting the Flame
Tumbling in the Waves
I’ve been so very triggered with my grief lately. I know pregnancy can really impact your emotions (trust me, this is my 4th baby and 6th pregnancy. I’m aware of what hormones do). But I’m just a wreck most days. … Continue Reading Tumbling in the Waves
Infertility Awareness Week
It is Infertility Awareness week, so I’d like to touch back on the subject of secondary infertility & pregnancy loss. … Continue Reading Infertility Awareness Week
Silencing
Holidays are always a struggle since his death. While they’re cherished time with family, they tend to be such a painful reminder of my child’s absence. Easter hit me hard. There should have been another basket, another set of tiny … Continue Reading Silencing
Letters From Strangers
I spent my morning looking through the stacks of cards and letters sent to us when Sloan died. There are … Continue Reading Letters From Strangers
