I have read my fair share of hateful things since Sloan’s death. Everyday there’s someone new leaving a comment somewhere, deciding their opinion of me and bereaved parents like me, has any bearing on the necessity of our authenticity. In … Continue Reading Grief Police
There is a LOT of comparison in the world of child loss and bereavement. I see so many comments and messages from grieving people that contain something like “I know my loss isn’t like yours but…” and it saddens me. … Continue Reading Comparison and Grief
Last night as I was tucking Rowan in to bed he started crying. I asked him what was wrong and … Continue Reading Home
For two weeks now I have been trying to move past the response I got when I posted that short … Continue Reading This is the Space I Occupy
People think they know how they’d react, what they’d do. You don’t. Grief is experienced differently by everyone. It is managed differently by everyone. I did the dishes when my son died. After we’d held his lifeless body for hours, … Continue Reading I Did the Dishes
Did you know I have to have a filter set up on my Instagram to keep certain hurtful words and comments from my viewing? That a friend has my login info so that she may sort through my DMs to … Continue Reading Sticks and Stones
I wish I had taken more photos. Documented his milestones, saved all the measurements and savored each new moment. I … Continue Reading Wishes
There are days I don’t dwell on his death. Entire days where I manage for it not to pull me under even once. And then there are days like today, his birthday. When I’ve cried quietly, but with all of … Continue Reading The Rougher Days
Tomorrow is your 3rd birthday. The third turn of a year for you, in which you aren’t here. It’s been … Continue Reading Three
Hello November! I’ve taken some time away from writing and posting lately. Life has been busy as we’ve settled into Rowan being in school, Phoenix turning into a little person instead of a baby, and ALL of us preparing for … Continue Reading November
When you tell me “It was God’s plan”, “God needed him more”, “He’s in a better place”, “Heaven needed him”, or “Everything happens for a reason.” You are minimizing my child’s life and death. Stop saying these things to the … Continue Reading This Was Never About Divinity
Dear Jordan, This morning, your son died. Right now it feels hopeless. As you hold your lifeless baby in your … Continue Reading A Letter To a Past Self
Rowan turns 6 two weeks from today. Lately he’s been remarking a LOT about missing his brother. The fact that my 6 year old child already has a part of his story that includes death, breaks my heart. I’m thankful … Continue Reading Rowan’s Grief
Have you ever had to think about what you would say for your child’s eulogy? Have you ever had to sign your name on a paper detailing what you want done with the body they left behind? Have you had … Continue Reading Have You Ever
The bereaved spend so much time being shushed and made to feel like we cannot share because it’s too sad, too uncomfortable, too inappropriate. We are quieted by people, with solutions, the want to gloss over with positivity, the need … Continue Reading Let us Complain
2 years since we had to learn how to live all over again 2 years of ache 2 years of … Continue Reading 2 years of the Space Between Us
Life of Petersons 