
Where Rowan Rests His Head
We gave Rowan this pillow for Christmas, it was a surprise gift sent to us last month. He has slept … Continue Reading Where Rowan Rests His Head
We gave Rowan this pillow for Christmas, it was a surprise gift sent to us last month. He has slept … Continue Reading Where Rowan Rests His Head
It’s been rough lately. (I feel like I’m saying that a lot and it’s beginning to lose meaning) Rowan has … Continue Reading On the Surface of Five
1 year ago yesterday I posted our announcement of Phoenix. It feels like just yesterday I was terrified of the … Continue Reading Phoenix Rising
On Sunday night, I crumbled. Phoenix was crying for hours, refusing sleep. It’s unusual for her. She’s been the mythical baby who has slept through the night since she was only weeks old. She’s not one to cry like that … Continue Reading Trauma & Triggers
She’s going to be 5 months old on Tuesday. Just 2 months until she will surpass Sloan’s life. It’s a … Continue Reading Milestones and Mourning
Finding beauty in death and trauma is not an easy undertaking. It requires you to see past the devastation and … Continue Reading Beauty
This is the face of release. The face of a mother who’d just given birth to a baby after loss. … Continue Reading The Rainbow Connection
When we had Sloan, we did not encounter much resistance from Rowan. He had adjusted to his role as a … Continue Reading A Brother’s Bond Transformed
When I found out I was pregnant with Phoenix, I panicked. She was a surprise, and so soon after the … Continue Reading Baby After Loss
This sweater was worn once, by her brother before her. When Sloan died, I didn’t want to look at anything … Continue Reading Knit Together
Last week, someone said “Not starting your child in kindergarten at 5 is selling them short. It is teaching them … Continue Reading My Child is the Village
A year ago, I’d thought that moments like this were gone forever for me. My baby in my arms, my … Continue Reading From Ashes
I watched you become a father. I’ve seen you hold back you tears as your newborns were placed in your … Continue Reading Father’s Day
Rowan hugs and kisses my belly every morning and says I love you to Phoenix. This morning, I said “you are missing having a baby around aren’t you?” He looked up at me and responded “Yeah mama, a lot” I … Continue Reading Rowan’s Trauma
How do you feel about Sloan? I love him, that’s how I feel Do you remember the day he died? … Continue Reading In Rowan’s Words
When I want to hold his hand this is the only answer. These tiny fingers, pruned up from his lifeless … Continue Reading Baby Sloan Hugs