Phoenix Rising
1 year ago yesterday I posted our announcement of Phoenix. It feels like just yesterday I was terrified of the … Continue Reading Phoenix Rising
Trauma & Triggers
On Sunday night, I crumbled. Phoenix was crying for hours, refusing sleep. It’s unusual for her. She’s been the mythical baby who has slept through the night since she was only weeks old. She’s not one to cry like that … Continue Reading Trauma & Triggers
Milestones and Mourning
She’s going to be 5 months old on Tuesday. Just 2 months until she will surpass Sloan’s life. It’s a … Continue Reading Milestones and Mourning
Beauty
Finding beauty in death and trauma is not an easy undertaking. It requires you to see past the devastation and … Continue Reading Beauty
The Rainbow Connection
This is the face of release. The face of a mother who’d just given birth to a baby after loss. … Continue Reading The Rainbow Connection
A Brother’s Bond Transformed
When we had Sloan, we did not encounter much resistance from Rowan. He had adjusted to his role as a … Continue Reading A Brother’s Bond Transformed
Baby After Loss
When I found out I was pregnant with Phoenix, I panicked. She was a surprise, and so soon after the … Continue Reading Baby After Loss
Knit Together
This sweater was worn once, by her brother before her. When Sloan died, I didn’t want to look at anything … Continue Reading Knit Together
My Child is the Village
Last week, someone said “Not starting your child in kindergarten at 5 is selling them short. It is teaching them … Continue Reading My Child is the Village
From Ashes
A year ago, I’d thought that moments like this were gone forever for me. My baby in my arms, my … Continue Reading From Ashes
Father’s Day
I watched you become a father. I’ve seen you hold back you tears as your newborns were placed in your … Continue Reading Father’s Day
Rowan’s Trauma
Rowan hugs and kisses my belly every morning and says I love you to Phoenix. This morning, I said “you are missing having a baby around aren’t you?” He looked up at me and responded “Yeah mama, a lot” I … Continue Reading Rowan’s Trauma
In Rowan’s Words
How do you feel about Sloan? I love him, that’s how I feel Do you remember the day he died? … Continue Reading In Rowan’s Words
Baby Sloan Hugs
When I want to hold his hand this is the only answer. These tiny fingers, pruned up from his lifeless … Continue Reading Baby Sloan Hugs
The Good, The Bad, The Happy, The Sad
The past week has been an intense inner struggle for me. I fought myself daily to keep my anxiety and … Continue Reading The Good, The Bad, The Happy, The Sad
Bond of Brothers
The love this boy holds for his brother never ceases to bring me to my knees. He says goodnight to … Continue Reading Bond of Brothers
Life of Petersons 