He is Gone
Our sweet rainbow boy is gone. I don’t even have words to explain the immense hole in our hearts right … Continue Reading He is Gone
Thank You
We just wanted to say thank you. Thank you for your words, your thoughts, your prayers. Thank you for wrapping … Continue Reading Thank You
Sloan’s Birth
On Saturday night I noticed Bloody show around 11:30pm. I was extremely uncomfortable so after making sure last minute things … Continue Reading Sloan’s Birth
Time Flies
26 weeks 104 days to go Yesterday was a year since the day my body miscarried our last pregnancy. It … Continue Reading Time Flies
Relief
22 weeks tomorrow with baby Sloan! Our appointment this week went well, our minds were eased a bit about the … Continue Reading Relief
20 weeks
We had our anatomy scan today. About three hours afterwards, my ob called me to tell me Sloan has an … Continue Reading 20 weeks
Rainbow
Finally, we step to the light. Our rainbow baby is due this December! It’s taken so much to get here-losses, tests, fertility meds and what felt like an eternity. To hear the doctor say “everything looks great!” this week was … Continue Reading Rainbow
Progress
32oz of water in 45 minutes=pelvic ultrasound time! Ultrasound was this morning, amazingly results were done right away. I just spoke with my Dr and my right ovary has a 12.56ml volume while my left has only 6.23ml volume, meaning … Continue Reading Progress
Test Results
Testing showed that my levels 7 days past ovulation should have been between 10-20, mine were 5.6. Numbers <6 are anovulatory. I’ll hear from my dr Monday/Tuesday to determine our next step in this process, hopefully clomid will be started … Continue Reading Test Results
Transparency in Grief
Life after loss has been such growth and purpose. We lost two pregnancies in a little over a years time. We kept quiet and agonized in silence with the first, I chose to honor my husbands wishes and remain private … Continue Reading Transparency in Grief
The Battle
Next week it will have been two years since we lost our second baby and last week marked 4 months since we lost our 3rd baby. It feels like ages ago, and like yesterday. While dealing with loss, the grief … Continue Reading The Battle
Secondary Infertility
We have been trying for another baby (of any gender, we don’t care which) for almost 2 years. I have done everything in my power and then some to try to get pregnant and stay pregnant, it just isn’t happening. … Continue Reading Secondary Infertility
What Would Have Been
Today I would have been starting my second trimester. There’s such an aching that comes from preparing a place in your heart and your life for a child that never comes. We had a name, we had a plan. We … Continue Reading What Would Have Been
Surfacing Grief
For some reason, the loss of our pregnancy has really hit me tonight. Maybe it’s seeing Rowan experience firsts I will never get to witness that baby attempt, or seeing so many others post about their budding pregnancies or the … Continue Reading Surfacing Grief
Rain, Rain, Go Away
We spent all week in and out of doctors offices, and today at the hospital. After a possible ectopic scare … Continue Reading Rain, Rain, Go Away
Try, Try Again
This week has been extremely stressful. I’m heartbroken to say we are experiencing the loss of who would have been our rainbow baby. We lost a pregnancy last year so we knew that loss was a possibility. We didn’t want … Continue Reading Try, Try Again
