Night number two without him. For only the second time since his birth, I did not get to kiss my baby goodnight and lay him down. I did not get to sing him the teddy song he so loved. I … Continue Reading Night Two Without Sloan
#sloanslight It is the 4th of July. What was formerly my favorite holiday is now simply “the day after”. How does the world keep spinning on, when it feels as if it has come crashing down. Sleep has not yet … Continue Reading Sloan’s Light
24 hours ago right now our lives changed forever. We have not let Ro out of our site for even a moment. I cling to him as if my own life depends on it now. The hands, and people who … Continue Reading 24 Hours Ago
Our sweet rainbow boy is gone. I don’t even have words to explain the immense hole in our hearts right … Continue Reading He is Gone
We just wanted to say thank you. Thank you for your words, your thoughts, your prayers. Thank you for wrapping … Continue Reading Thank You
On Saturday night I noticed Bloody show around 11:30pm. I was extremely uncomfortable so after making sure last minute things … Continue Reading Our Clomid Baby: Sloan’s Birth
26 weeks 104 days to go Yesterday was a year since the day my body miscarried our last pregnancy. It … Continue Reading Our Clomid Baby: 26 Weeks
22 weeks tomorrow with baby Sloan! Our appointment this week went well, our minds were eased a bit about the … Continue Reading Our Clomid Baby: 22 Weeks
We had our anatomy scan today. About three hours afterwards, my ob called me to tell me Sloan has an … Continue Reading Our Clomid Baby: 20 week Anatomy Scan
Finally, we step to the light. Our rainbow baby is due this December! It’s taken so much to get here-losses, tests, fertility meds and what felt like an eternity. To hear the doctor say “everything looks great!” this week was … Continue Reading Our Clomid Baby
The Clomid journey has begun! 32oz of water in 45 minutes=pelvic ultrasound time! Ultrasound was this morning, amazingly results were done right away. I just spoke with my Dr and my right ovary has a 12.56ml volume while my left … Continue Reading Pelvic Ultrasound
Testing showed that my levels 7 days past ovulation should have been between 10-20, mine were 5.6. Numbers <6 are anovulatory. I’ll hear from my dr Monday/Tuesday to determine our next step in this process, hopefully clomid will be started … Continue Reading Progesterone Test Results
Next week it will have been two years since we lost our second baby and last week marked 4 months since we lost our 3rd baby. It feels like ages ago, and like yesterday. While dealing with loss, the grief … Continue Reading Transparency in Pregnancy Loss
We have been trying for another baby (of any gender, we don’t care which) for almost 2 years. I have done everything in my power and then some to try to get pregnant and stay pregnant, it just isn’t happening. … Continue Reading Secondary Infertility
Today I would have been starting my second trimester. There’s such an aching that comes from preparing a place in your heart and your life for a child that never comes. We had a name, we had a plan. We … Continue Reading Surfacing Grief With Recurrent Miscarriage
We spent all week in and out of doctors offices, and today at the hospital. After a possible ectopic scare … Continue Reading Blighted Ovum and Delayed Loss