Mother’s Day. It’s hard to presently mother living children while also learning how to mother a child lost. It’s hard … Continue Reading Grieving on Mother’s Day
It is Bereaved Mother’s Day today. A day I never knew existed until suddenly, I existed in its cause. It’s … Continue Reading A Day Like Today
Since she was an infant, Phoenix has been what we thought was a “terrible sleeper”. Constant wakings that always involved … Continue Reading Phoenix: Are her seizures tied to a sleep disorder?
Yesterday was National Siblings Day, and as with last year and the year before, I had a hard time with … Continue Reading A Family Portrait
Today, school was cancelled for the remainder of year here in Washington. While we all assumed this announcement was impending, it was still quite a blow to any of us with children eager to return to their constant. Rowan doesn’t … Continue Reading School’s Out For…?
I have read my fair share of hateful things since Sloan’s death. Everyday there’s someone new leaving a comment somewhere, deciding their opinion of me and bereaved parents like me, has any bearing on the necessity of our authenticity. In … Continue Reading Grief Police
I think there’s a collective tiredness right now. Tired of what’s been, tired of what we’re told is coming. Tired … Continue Reading Shelter in Place
There is a LOT of comparison in the world of child loss and bereavement. I see so many comments and messages from grieving people that contain something like “I know my loss isn’t like yours but…” and it saddens me. … Continue Reading Comparison and Grief
I’ve been trying to collect my thoughts about everything currently going on in our world. My heart has been heavy with dread, my mind clouded by anxiety and fear. Worrying is tiresome, and I’ve done more than my fair share … Continue Reading Stay Home
Two days ago, my mom was admitted to the ICU with Streptococcal pneumonia, sepsis, and afib. It took hours to … Continue Reading Mom- ICU
We are exhausted over here adjusting to life with three babes, two who are under two. It has been a … Continue Reading Postpartum
Breast feeding was a challenge from the get go for us. It always ended up the same…me in pain, Valorie frustrated, and still hungry. I would pump, but I was never able to get more than a measly 1-2 ounces … Continue Reading Fed is Best
Our girl had another episode of seizure activity Saturday night, this time not as long or severe thankfully. Her neuro appointment is scheduled for the 12th of March, and eeg for the 26th. I’m so grateful they were able to … Continue Reading Phoenix: Another Seizure
I want to be honest and upfront about something so many don’t talk about- postpartum depression and delayed bonding with … Continue Reading Mama, I’ve Been There
Last night as I was tucking Rowan in to bed he started crying. I asked him what was wrong and … Continue Reading Home
Last night at around 10:30pm I heard the sound of Phoenix gagging, then crying out on the monitor to her … Continue Reading Phoenix: Grand Mal Seizure