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I Did the Dishes

People think they know how they’d react, what they’d do. You don’t. Grief is experienced differently by everyone. It is managed differently by everyone. I did the dishes when my son died. After we’d held his lifeless body for hours, … Continue Reading I Did the Dishes

The Salt of the Earth

My parents made the decision 3 decades ago to create life together and they’ve nurtured, loved, and supported those lives unconditionally every day since. Regardless of their own well being, their own struggles, their own traumas, their own wants, desires, … Continue Reading The Salt of the Earth

Wishes

I wish I had taken more photos. Documented his milestones, saved all the measurements and savored each new moment. I … Continue Reading Wishes

Still Here

Yesterday was one week since our PICU admittance with Vallie. I haven’t posted since we were discharged, because if I’m being completely honest, I’ve needed some emotional recovery. Recognizing how close we’d been to losing her, to losing another child, … Continue Reading Still Here

RSV

The past few days have been quite a rollercoaster for us. The girls were both sick with what was initially … Continue Reading RSV

The Rougher Days

There are days I don’t dwell on his death. Entire days where I manage for it not to pull me under even once. And then there are days like today, his birthday. When I’ve cried quietly, but with all of … Continue Reading The Rougher Days